I've read some of your letters and I've gained the courage to write in and express how I am feeling.
This past week I have been in a state of shock and I have not been myself at all. I am carrying on as if everything is okay but honestly I am fighting a battle within myself that is burdening my spirit.
I found out that my daughter is dating a man I used to date a long time ago. Long before she was even born, I met this man at a party and we dated briefly. She had been telling me about her new man and how mature and established he is but I never thought he would be old enough to be her father. She brought him to the house for dinner and I almost dropped the dish I was carrying when I saw his face. I didn't know whether I should acknowledge that I knew him or pretend he was a stranger. The introduction confirmed that he was indeed the man I dated and I could barely shake his hand. He didn't let on that he knew me, so I kept quiet. I used to curse the fact that I have gained a lot of weight, but that night I was thankful for it. I guess I looked too different to recognize.
Long story, short - I have been reminiscing on the times I spent with him and how good of a lover he was. I can't help but have dirty thoughts about him but I must stop because he is my child's man.
He is at the house a lot now and I am tempted to touch. I know it is wrong but I cannot help how I am feeling.
Any suggestions as to what I can do to get these kinds of thoughts out of my head? I hate that I feel this way.
Signed,
Tempted
